ray_weston

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Looking for payday loans?

im so tired of school. i just want to turn in a picture and not be asked where the fucking text is going to go. i want to do photography not graphic design. it didnt used to be like that. i have to take a portfolio class next semester, with the end goal being to have a complete portfolio, and i will bet you any amount of money that the portfolio i end up with is going to be of no use to me, not matter how good it is. i bounce around from school to school for 3 years and when i finally figure out where i want to be and get there the whole fucking program is different. fuck man... i just want photography to be fun again....

I got a new camera. it shoots an 8inch by 10inch negative. i love it. i shot my first images with it today so im hoping to have some shots up in the next couple days. thats pretty much all i have to say. i need to do some work.

so, it's 1:30 in the morning. i just got home from my g/f's. on the way home, i was driving down slaem chruch road between rt4 and old baltimore pike, on the dark strip past christiana high school. i got to a point where i could see a wierd shadow in the road being cast by the headlights of an oncoming car, i slowed and when i got up to it it's a deer. laying in the middle of the road. i started to go around it and it picked its head up and looked right at me. i went by and when i looked in my rearview i could see it trying to get up but it's back two legs were dead. so... it pisses me off that people are too fucking worried about whatever thier worried aobut to do anything when they hit a fucking deer. if u hit a deer hard enough to do that to it, your car is going to be fucked up. and your too worried about you fucking insurance going up or whatever to do shit about it. not only is my ass gona be driving down the road soon after and your not gona fucking call the cops to get it cleaned up, (i did to report it and they said it was the first they had heard about it) but your fucked up enough to hit a fucking deer and then leave it there in the middle of the road to slowly die. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE TODAY?!?!?!?


...that was my bitch fest.... im going to bed.

flogging molly and dropkick murphy tonight. im ready to get my head smashed in. WOOHOO!

i just slept for 18 hours and holy shit was it nice

back to school
back to school
to prove to dad that i'm not a fool
got my lunch pack packed
my shoes tied tight
i hope i dont get in a fight
ooooooooo
back to school
back to school

theres still three weeks before school starts and i already hate this simester.

i just saw an alltel wireless comercial. it's the one where the 4 guys from the other companies kidnap the alltel guy, and put him in the van and start questioning him. normally (and please tell me if anyoneelse has seen this) it ends with the fat guy saying "or we'll have to do stuff" and then he pinches him. the verision i just saw, the fat guy went, and i quote "or we'll have to beet you with a tube sock full of wood screws." i swear to fucking god. WHAT THE HELL?

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=685022061

i would never fucking recomend foschi to anyone. they take quantity over quality. thier product is shit. even pictures ive taken. i dont fucking care enough to give them a decent picture. i know that they make me set my camera to such a low quality setting that when they blow the pic to and 8x10, even a fucking 5x7 that it's just goning to be shit. ted has no fucking clue about what real photography is. he cant even fucking use a goddamn camera. there;s people working there that SUCK. they just are fucking HORRIBLE. but because they're older than 30 it meens they have "experience" and "knowledge." fuck that. yea im only fucking 20 and im not out of school yet but i can fucking run circles around them. and im not saying that im a fucking awesome photographer, I"M NOT. yes im good, and i can shoot a nice fucking picture when the urge arrises, but i still have A LOT to learn. but seriously. these people fucking suck. they should be burn at the stake and the fire should come from pictures that they've taken that have been set on fire. ted fucking thinks his senoirs are that best. dude. the fucking senior portrait suck. they suck. the fucking angles are wrong, mostly because the photographers are too gadamn lazy to move thier fucking cameras once in a while. and when they get printed, white people look like they've been laying in a taning bed for 40 years. and black people are fucking purple. i fucking hate being associated with the fucking place. i need somewhere i can go. i need a place where i'll be looked at as someone that they can teach.l some one that has a pretty good clue what they're doing and just needs a little help and guidance. i've worked at foschi a year and a half almost and i've never had my work fucking critiqued. i've gotten "thats nice, or thats shit" but never fucking critiqued. i want to be somehwere that'll take the 30seconds to tell me how to fix what i did wrong, because i fucking guarantee you that if you take the 30 seconds i wont fucking do it agin next time. i need somewhere to go. i think im just gona fucking quit and try to get a job in a camera shop untill i can figure something else out. i need money cause i need to get out of my fucking house. i cant stand it here. im gona be 21 in less than 1/2 a year. i just need to get the fuck away.

I DONE!!!!!!!!!!

and i just slept for almost 12 hours!!!!!!!!

tell me what you think.i want to know. the only photoshop i did was density and contrast adjustments.

have you ever woken up in the morning and gone "why the fuck is it snowing?"

four o'clock in the fucking morning and im still up. fuck.... i cant concentrate. i cant focus on anything. i've been like comletely out of it all fucking day.andi dont meen just since midnight. i dunno. one more week till spring break. thank fucking god.

I took these for a self portrait project for school. let me know what you think. they're still a bit rough.

You know, when you close your eyes and wish realy hard for something?
God's the guy that ignores you.